hello(:
oookay,i'm a happy happy girl(: hunn called at 2229 on the 28th,LOVES.ayeeeee,its a nice number!so we talked for 232 minutes.TRALALA.so he talked about his to be.oookay,he's alright(: and i'm feeling a little more than alright myself.so i guess we're both alright,like YAY.oookay so i'm getting over,hah yeah.and my puppy's sick,fuck ahhhhh.so i'm bringing him to the vet today.
mr rockstar's having O's today i think.all the best you(: oookay,i hope i wont start.coz it'll just suck like all over again.hah,i'm watching QAF.TRALALA,i've finally got the whole season.damn you michael,you're so despo ahhhhhh.but they've known each other for a long time,i wouldnt be surprised.halloween's tomorrow,partayeeee at jen's place.i'm gonna dress as morticia(: and jen's gonna be corpse bride!we've shopped for our costumes already,so its so gonna be awesome tomorrow.hunn was supposed to be jack sparrow.so we'll be sseing him on webcam,HAH.lame but we promised that we'll see the ooober lovely costumes on halloween.TRALALA,i'm gonna see hunn(: i cant wait,i'm gonna wear that dress!so,probably getting drunk,smokey room,totally gonna sleep over at jen's place.i wanna go to ST JAMES ACADEMY,for the fun of it.whats with michael,you little prick.





;lets go far,where no one could ever find us.

GOODBYE LOVE,I HOPE YOU'RE GONE FOR GOOD.I'LL BE HERE, ENDLESSLY WAITING FOR YOUR CALL.SO HERE I GO AGAIN,GOODBYE LOVE.

so hunn's gone)': i sent him off at around midnight.fuck luhhh.jen came with me too.i just had to go over to her place.i'm effing depressed,i'm so not going for camp next week.and i wont be going out these few days.i'm uber sorry elaine): not yet i suppose,so i'll just be at home.he said that he'll ring me when he arrives,so i'm still waiting.ahhhh,god help me.i effing miss him.i've never stayed at jen's house and spend my night at holland without him)': FUCK MANN.why does it take so long for the plain to land!so many people are telling me to relax.which i'm trying to.i mean its a daily basis thing to spend my day at his place and getting his smses when he's only in the kitchen): i dont think i can even step into holland anymore,or lido,or ps,or town.and my effing house)': this is so effing wrong.this isnt supposed to happen,and yet it did.i didnt sleep last night.and i have to get jen absolut.i finished hers,and my cash's all gone.i spent on 3 boxes of puffs.papa,i'm effing sorry)': till the next time.






;how am i ever going to get rid of these blues.

hello):
today's been the WORST day like ever.i had a really really really bad diarrhea.like some serious fuck ahhhhhh.so i didnt get to watch the performance during assembly.they were dancing to salaam namaste luhhhh!whore ass): and the results were out today!&&& mrs wong was supposed to see my papa!but they told me at the fucking last minute!stupid moronic school,always last minute ahhhh.so now i'm still scared): i dont want to fucking retain,the class says that i wont,but i'm still scared.I DONT WANT TO EFFING RETAIN!I DONT WANT!if i do,WHICH I DONT WANT TO,then there WILL be black parade.i've decided the coffin that i want.i'll seriously just kill myself): eff okayyyyy.first thing in the morning was diarhhea,then results,then worry about retaining,then i brokedown in the toilet when i thought about hunn's departure tomorrow)))))': what will make him NOT leave?i dont know.i'm confused,is there a need to wait.i dont even know when he's coming back!i feel like telling him to come back already.what am i going to do during the holidays?!!i'll be so effing sad luhhhh,i'll just cry my eyes/heart/lungs/brains out.jen kept trying to talk me out &stuff,but i cant get over it.he's leaving tomorrow,he's going to leave me being helpless here,& i've got so much to worry about.we argue about the slightest things that i do.he'll tell me to stop puffing and i'll say no,then the list goes on.my condition's going to get worst.OMGGGGG,dont leave)': i have no mood to go out with anyone anymore.
& i'm staying over at hunn's place tonight,i cant fucking take it.everyone's telling me to relax.IT ISNT EASY,really.4 months arent enough): i feel so blue.my fucking stomach aches yet again.i feel like blood parading.i dont feel like going for that stupid depressing camp.its going to make me more depressed,fuck it ahhhhh.where's roland!you man whore,come and cheer me up)': he's going to say an zua ehh friend.hah.yay,i grinned(: UNDEPRESSED PEOPLE,A LITTLE HELP HERE PLEASEEEEEEE.i'm going to stop complaining now,till the next time(:







;i have with me,heavens divine.

hello(:
ohh well i got the puppy.so now chaos.one poos then the other,HAH.then by the end of the day i'll be full of shit.hunn's leaving on friday): i'm sending him off to the airport at about 12.fuck ahhhhhh.i'm not gonna talk about it,rawr.i'm stuck to come back to me by vanessa hudgens.its nice luhhhhh.okay you know what,i'm CRAZYING mr rockstar): ohh mannnn.HAH,it came back to haunt me again.omgggggg,really okay!i didnt go to school today.i;m down with fever and some stupid flu.you know,i'm scared!i'm scared of retaining): really!i'll just die if i retain.jeeeez,GOD HELP ME PLEASEEEEE.
mr rockstar,GOOD LUCK(:







;i want to cross the line with you.

hello(:
alas!i'm getting a puppy,its oooober oooober cute okayyyyy.hah.so i didnt go to school for 2 days.i stayed over at hunn's place.ohhh the funn.then we searched about terriers temperament and stuff.ahhhhhhhh,finally i can say.THIS OOOOOOOBER CUTE PUPPY IS MINE.hah.its a guy by the way.scruffy sit!yay!ohhhh you know,its fucking chaotic in my house.that bitch is such a moron.the other way around works for me too(: she's getting on everyone's nerves.ahhhhhhh,you know what.my papa's pissed with you too.and if you continue your stupid fucking attitude,YOU'RE SO OUT OF THE HOUSE.please,your comments are so unnecessary.like about my phone bill?she says things like,"you should stop sending mms stuff,with that money,you can save for the new dog." like fuck you mannnn.its my fucking money,and i've starved before,just to pay for my bills.dont think that you're much of a no-big-spender-pet-owner okay.you waste most of your money,on clothes and shoes that you dont wear,AT ALL.you just but them for show.ohhhh and you spend on travelling to your boyfriends' country.ohhhh and THAT YOU HAVE THE MONEY!you go to their place,fuck them then break up.you're such a no life.gp,i'm sorry.but this is what you should see for yourself.ohhhhh and she's non stop acting so innocent and holy.which i cant fucking stand.ohhhh i guess,you want your sins to be forgiven.whatever mannn.ohhhhhhh and please,if you really are jealous of my new puppy so much,keep commenting.then i'll be there to say,GOODBYE TINA,HAVE A NICE LIFE.
the thing that blows me off the most,is that you got the cheek to ask my maid to do your stuff,and complain about me being irresponsible.HAH,thats some funny shit mannn.ohhhhhhh and you didnt even have the bloody courtesy to pay some of the bills with my papa.do you think money grows from trees.yina,isnt that what you enjoy saying before?well now,all you can do is pray my papa wont start his temper then throw you out of the house.and you know,FUCK YOU.till the next time(:








;coz for my family,i'm happy.

hello(:
omgggggggg,my papa allowed me to get myself a puppy(: i got hooked to the yorkshire terrier!omggggggg,its damn cute.the shih tzu looks sicklyy): i'm scared to get it.so i'm getting a female yorkie okayyyy.its gonna be my own,all mine(: hah.i'm angry at some moronic shit okayyyyy.rawr,she's such a whore): whatever mannn.i'm gonna show her that i'll take care of it.if you're jealous then say so laaaaaa!you dont need to say such unnecessary comments to my mother so that she'll change her mind.you've got a dog,and its just stupid that you spoil it that way.i care for it,but theres so many things you dont allow it to do.not even going for walks!ohhh &that is animal abusing!how can you expect it to be disciplined if she's being SPOILED every second?that poor thing has been stuck in the house for i-dont-know-how-many-years!rawr,before you comment about me,fix your shit &make sure whatever you do is commendable.assholeeeeeee.humpf,i want that yorkie and i will care for it,and not spoil it like you do.AND FOR ONCE,JUST SHUT THAT THOUSAND TON TRAP OF YOURS!i'm pissed okayyyy.
sigh,so i called hunn today and told him about whats happening,and i'm acting that way): ohhh well,everything happens for a reason right.i might as well just accept it and keep shut.hunn,you're still loved<333 no worries(: remember,till the end(:
ohhh well,i'm gonna vroooom now.till the next time(:






;theres just too much that time cannot erase.

hello):
ahhhhhhhhhh,today was damn screwed.okay,i totally flunk my malay and maths okayyyyy.fuck laaaaaa.fn was okayyyyy i guess.jeeez mann.i'm so not in a mood,rawr.i ignored hunn's calls.i cant believe it.i'm gonna fucking retain,then i'll just jump down laaaaaa.ohhhh fuck it.
i'm currently hooked to my love by justin timberlake(: its OOOH LAA LAAA okayyyy.i havent seen mr rockstar,rawr.where are youuuuuu!hah.i need to go slacking somewhere.i need dave to get me into MOS,omgggggggg.i need dave to go slacking with!you whore): where are you!why is everyone suddenly disappearing?rawr,i need a girls night out,seriously.i need to talk to someone who can handle these kinda stuff.ahhhhhh,i'm down with major emo virus or something okayyyyy.fuck laaaaaaaa.hunn i hope you're reading this,I'M EMOTIONALLY DISTURBED OKAYYYYYY.&i hope ypu understand): till the next time.






;what's the point in waiting anymore.

hello(:
i'm here again,omggggggg.i found out about that MOS halloween party!so i've asked uber many people already.only 2 of them are coming with me.

SO WHO'S WANTS TO GO FOR THE GATECRASHER HALLOWEEN PARTY AT MOS?
IT'S HAPPENING ON THE 28 OCTOBER.
ANY ENQUIRIES,
CALL ME AT 81687218.

hello(:
i've got nothing much to blog.went to hunn's place for a few hours,went for a quick breakfast then came home.i didnt have the mood to stay over his place tonight,rawr.i really dont know whats happening,i've been blowing him off &vice versa.whatever ahhhhhh,jeez mann.i wanna go drink): theres halloween parties at DXO &MOS i think.i wanna!but for DXO,its a RnB battle night,RAWR.i hate it mannn.wtf is the battle for!want it so much then go dance during war laaaaaa.hah,i'm going insane.ohhhh,i want a halloween party,MAJORLY.i hope jen is preparing one.ahhhhh,the fun.i wanna dress as elizath bathory(: hah,creepy okayyyyyy.but its cool at the same time.
ohhhhhh,i cant wait for friday.i want that QAF seaons.i want!okayyyy i'm tired already.till the next time(:







;sharing never showed me much appeal, and now I'm only praying it's for real.

hello(:
i have been uber addicted to QAF.hah,that michael is such a man whore okayyyy.he firstly,doesnt even deserve brian.just because of some childhood times hug then they went together.oh mannn.brian still belongs to justin okayyyy.they're just perfect mann.hah,i'm insane okayyyy.ohhh there was someone who messaged me on friendster asking me if i was gay,omgggggggg.thats just so unnecessary mannn.it so doesnt mean if i watch gay shows,i must be one right!rawr,that person is seriously against homos okayyyy.you can just go and dieeeeeee.
i saw a shih tzu today,its uber freaking cute okayyyy.i want!will it get along with my schnauzer?i want him okayyyy,he's freaking adorable mannnn.i wanna cry): ahhhhhh,roland is annoying me.he messages me in the middle of the night.
rawr,i didnt see rockstar online for days.so sad.its so nice talking to him(: habbo is dead,i feel lonely.






;on my moist eyes even tears are frozen

hello(:
i have been uber addicted to QAF.hah,that michael is such a man whore okayyyy.he firstly,doesnt even deserve brian.just because of some childhood times hug then they went together.oh mannn.brian still belongs to justin okayyyy.they're just perfect mann.hah,i'm insane okayyyy.ohhh there was someone who messaged me on friendster asking me if i was gay,omgggggggg.thats just so unnecessary mannn.it so doesnt mean if i watch gay shows,i must be one right!rawr,that person is seriously against homos okayyyy.you can just go and dieeeeeee.
i saw a shih tzu today,its uber freaking cute okayyyy.i want!will it get along with my schnauzer?i want him okayyyy,he's freaking adorable mannnn.i wanna cry): ahhhhhh,roland is annoying me.he messages me in the middle of the night.
rawr,i didnt see rockstar online for days.so sad.its so nice talking to him(: habbo is dead,i feel lonely.






;on my moist eyes even tears are frozen

hello(:
rawr,got back english marks today.it was okay.depressing though.ohh mann.i'm scared for the rest of my subjects okayyy.i have to promote to sec 4,and i want to.if i retain,RIP tia.its the end mann.okay depressing moments even after exams,i need help.fuck you exams,really.
watched QAF again today,then i had emo moments): omggggggg,i'm lame.meeting nur next friday to watch talledega nights,hah.i need to laugh things off okayyyyy!ohhh and she's also going to lend me the whole season of QAF,fucking awesome mannn.i'm feeling damn down,rawr.blades are rusted,i need to get new ones.my cigarettes are running out,i need to get them.rawr,papa found out about it.SUPER SURPRISINGLY,he only told me to stop.he was mad,but he looked un-pleased.i'm really trying to stop,really.hunn and i argue over my habit,like many times.why does he care?he's going to leave,i'm staying here,i'm going to fucking retain,and if i smoke more,the earlier i'm going to die.isnt that just awesome.it might work though.till the next time(:

i've had my friday the 13th fun already,i've had ENOUGH,so stop playing around.



;when you go and you give it all away.

hello(:
oh well todays accounts paper was screwed,really mann.but social studies was alright though.i'm scared for tomorrow's math paper 1,rawr.i need help okay.not in studying,but keeping my mind off stuff.like i've been having this uber strong urge to take a blade and draw on my hand.i'm scared of retaining.i've studied so hard but i seem to just forget everything when i start the paper): fuck okayyyyy.and i kinda thought about something today and i started crying,damnnn.i watched QAF and i started crying again,whats wrong with me mann!i'm such an emotional nut nowadays okayyyyy.i need someone to make me laugh.i've been drafting my to-be coffin.the one thats green and full of red roses.dont you think its weird?i'm feeling a little creeped out myself,rawr.whats the hell i wrong with me!am i going insane?my head can actually explode at any moment okayyyy.my life's a wreck,i'm wishing for unbelievable things to happen.i feel fucking dreamy):






;in a middle of a gunfight.

hello(:
today was alright,i guess.math paper 2 was uber uber screwed,omgggggg.i didnt have time to complete my paper okayyy.i skipped 3 questions i think,rawr.i'm going to fucking fail): damn,i dont want to retain,omgggggg.tomorrow is social studies and accounts paper,so much to study okayyyyyy.so maybe today hasnt been going alright.i'm leading an uber emotional lifeeeeeeee,rawr.it just sucks okayyyyy.i'm emotional,really.i cant stand it.i cry over the slightest thing.am i abnormal?omgggggggg,i so need help.WHATS WRONG WITH ME?why do i cry over the lamest reasons?whatever,i need to listen to MCR now.hah,it might sound dumb but they really make me feeel better okayyyyy.scream scream SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM(:
okay,life isnt so bad when theres one or two people you can relate to,but for now,theres only hunn.and i dont him to go through depression.so i'm just going to keep my mouth shut,rawr.i need depressed people,WHERE ARE YOU PEOPLE?






;its where this deep infatuation trully lies.

hello(:
i watched stay alive with hunn last night,omgggggg.its scary fucking scary okayyyy.hah.and we watched it at night,which made it uber fucking scary &no one was beside me.hunn has bruises on his hand &thigh,hah.i kept pinching him.ahhhhh i still think that guy is unfaithful to october,rawr.uber prettaye sophia bush died,omggggg.ho can mann!but the ending was,screwed okayyyy.how can all the games get published): they died saving each other!so mean!hah,craejeeeeeeee.ohhh i read the story on elizabeth bathory,its uber uber freakyyyyyy): she killed like 600 virgin girls okayyyy.thats like disgusting,especially knowing that she actually bathes in their blood,EWWW.and like,omgggggg.thats just eerie.i wanna find the game though,hah.
i found the boyzone when the going gets tough video(: omgggggg,ronan's just the uber cute shit okayyyyy.hah.today was history paper): i felt i did okayyyy.but lets just wait and see.hah,ammar's just asked me something yet again,EWWW.okayy,dave is just slow okayyyy.she said she watched L word,and she thinks they're arousing.is she like slow or what mann.ahhhh,outing with jar and macho soooooon(: like yay!till the next time(:






;the game plays by itself.

hello(:
i'm at hunn's place.whats wrong with the weather mann.its damn hazy okayyy.and so many people are getting sick and stuff.rawr.hunn's getting better,but still not good.): i had a long 3 and a half hour talk with jar.hah.its been a long longggg time.it feels weird talking to her,and being crazy like we were.hah.ohh and peizhen are back in terms with jar,omgggggg.hah.its just WEIRD okayyy.oh well,everything's changing.like jar breaking up with denise,dave going back with alexis,etc mannn.omgggggg,so cool.everyone's changing,and so do bestfriends.ahhhhh the one who promised to stay by my side and etc okayyyy.so idiot): these people are just too good to be true huhhhhh,rawr.i've been studying my head off okayyyyy.ohhh &hunn just suck in maths like total hammer jammer okayyyyy.and i thought i was bad: hah.he still refuses to camwhore with me.so sad,omggggg.hah.
i dont know i dont know i dont know.he's bothering me!hah.oh well,till the next time(:






;baby i love you all the way down.

hello(:
oh well many stuff happened.okay i guess i kind of overreacted when hunn mentioned about his move.ahhh you cant blame me.i'm upset.i cant keep pretending i'm happy and everything's going ultra fine and stuff.i still love him and who knows when i'll ever get over it?i dont think i ever will.we've been through so much.and i owe him so much.oh well i made it up to him yesterday.its the least that i can do before he leave everything here): ohhh you see.there i go again.i'm some emo crap,omggggg.
habbo life is,omgggggg.hello long lost crush okayyyy.omggggg,and how about hunn?ohh crap.these people are,downright ridiculous.craejeeeeeeeee.hah.till the next time suckers(:




;at times i feel i'll lose control &forget evryone but the hand i'm holding.

hello(:
i've been staying over hunn's place these few days.he's been really sick): so saddd.rawr.i shouldnt have been sick at his place.ohh mannn.
elaine and i watched john tucker must die today.ITS UBER FUCKING OVER EXTREMELY NICE.hah.it was niceeee!jesse matcalfe is hawt.omggggg,and sophia bush is some sexaye shit too okayy.i envy these people.rawr.
how come GV hasnt published you,me &dupree yet.omggggg,lido is faster.but the theatre is damn congested.hah.ahhhhhh i wanna watch horror.okayyy i got to run nowwwww.till the next time(:




;those gorgeous eyes,baby we're meant to be.